Jordas did not say that.

[If he's ever been more sure of something, he cannot remember.]

Jordas is, was, a cephalon. Jordas seved the Lotus, served an Operator. The- vile disgusting - infestation did.

[Being forced into servitude like that...it's horrific to think about. Degraded so far, supressed...it isn't a fate he'd wish upon anyone.]

I do not deserve anything. And I-Ordis is not alone. He has the Operator.